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We were having our lunch buffet for the last time.  Most of my friends are going back to their hometown for goods.  For no reason, I am going to miss them so.  It was only one short semester to be with them, but I felt so much joys and precious memories with them.

They said when you say hello, for sure you have to say goodbye.

Well, that's true.

I miss him so much

Banyak hal yang terjadi selama 4 bulan kepergiaanku.  Sebelum keberangkatan aku selalu berpikir bahwa semua akan jauh lebih indah setelah kepergiaanku.  Tapi, tidak ada orang yang dapat menebak bagaimana takdir bertindak mengeksekusi kehidupan manusia.  Tanpa daya, kita manusia, hanya dapat menerima yang telah ditakdirkan.

Seberapa kuat tenaga yang kita keluarkan untuk melawannya.  Semuanya, hanya sia-sia.  Selama 4 bulan ini, aku mengira aku telah mendapatkan kehidupan almost-perfect dalam hidupnya.  Tapi ternyata di dalam almost-perfect itu terdapat banyak unperfect. 

Dan, akhirnya aku mengalami apa yang sering orang katakana white lie.  Aku dibohongi oleh keluargaku sendiri hanya demi menjaga perasaanku.  Aku kehilangan kakekku pada tanggal 7 Juni, tapi tidak ada seorang pun yang memberitahuku.  Mereka menyembunyikan rahasia ini segitu rapatnya hingga aku baru bisa mengetahuinya pada tgl 27 Juni.

Tidak ada kata yang dapat mengungkapkan bagaimana perasaanku pada malam itu.  Aku merasa hancur dan serapuh-rapuhnya.  Kakek yang paling kusayangi selama ini telah meninggalkan dunia ini untuk selamanya.  Kakek yang berjanji akan menunggu pulang telah pergi sembari membawwa pergi janji kita berdua.

Setiap detik yang kulalui seakan sedang menapak selangkah demi selangkah untuk keluar dari jurang tak bertepi.  Setiap detik yang kulalui seakan seperti waktu yang tidak akan pernah melangkah pergi.  Hanya berdiri tetap disana.

Kesakitan dalam hati itu hanya dapat mengalir keluar membentuk buliran-buliran airmata yang tiada akhir.  Aku merasa kehilangan.  Kehilangan yang paling sakit yang pernah aku rasakan.

Bagaimana rasanya saat kamu menyayangi seseorang.  Ingin bertemu dengannya.  Ingin berbicaranya dengannya.  Tetapi, kenyataan memberitahukanmu bahwa orang itu tiada lagi dalam dunia ini.  Seberapa ingin kamu mencari kesempatan untuk bertemu.  Kesempatan itu tidak akan pernah muncul.

Dan, aku merasakan hidupku akan berubah tanpa kehadiran kakek.

and story goes....

BBQ party after final examination.  Yeay! Holiday is starting from tomorrow.  See you next semester, guys!

last day of summer semester

The last day of summer semester.  I can't believe it that 4 months went this fast.  It just like I was started study at this class a few weeks ago and now it has to be over.  I am going to miss my classmate and my teachers.  If we are lucky enough, we are going to meet again next semester.  To be together in another same class.  And I am having my precious time for this semester with all of you guys!

it has been a while

I am finally back after several months away from facebook, blogger, twitter.  The connection at China is really suck. I dont get it why China needs to block its country connection to these such services.  I need to find many ways and cheat software to get access through it.


And I missed blogging so much.  For these weekends, I am going to write a lots..
Stay tune, fellas and whoever that keep visiting my blogs.

costa

Tukta, one of my Thailand friends.  Both of us got attacked by boring.  Took some pictures was the best medicine.

can't handle my stomach

I guess every country has its own korean and china town.  Even the tastes of the food is not as good as in its own country.  But it's better than none.

There is a friend comes from Thailand.  It likes a small reunion.  Actually, I dont even know him.  It was my first time to get know him.  

He is a funny and welcome person.  He speaks some sentences in Indonesia with fluent accent such as, "jangan bicara bahasa indonesia".

We stayed in country that most of our friends from worldwide and only English or Chinese language made us as a unite.  But sometimes, we can forget about it and keep talking our mother language.

simple little thing

It is not about how expensive the brand that you wear

It is not about how much money you spend on your food

It is not about how far the country that you visit

Life just need a simple thing

and...

"happiness comes from a simple little thing"

Hongkong Trip

Another trip to Hongkong. We took train for around 2 hours half from Guangzhou.  But when we arrived, it was pretty late.  We did have time for dinner and a little shopping.  We decided to spend 3 days 2 nights there.  Consider that our time wasn' enough.  

And that was so true.  We run out of time.  I haven't try many delicious food that I craved for. 

Hope that I'll be back for another holiday.