Saturday, February 27, 2010

The Admire

Tidak ada alasan khusus, mengapa aku bisa sangat menyukai kopi. Sebagian orang menyukainya karena mereka menganggap minuman ini bisa membuat mata mereka lebih fit dalam beraktivitas. Ada juga yang berkata bahwa kopi bagus untuk pertumbuhan otak manusia.

Benarkah semua itu? Satu-satunya kenyataan yang kutahu tentang kopi hanyalah minuman kental itu dapat membuatku bertahan, bergadang semalam menyelesaikan semua pekerjaan yang kubawa pulang ke rumah.

Ada satu hal yang sangat pasti tentang kopi bagiku. Aku menyukainya karena aromanya. Lembut, menusuk, tapi selalu dapat merangsang otak kanan dan kiriku serta menyegarkan hati dan pikiran. Tapi. Biarpun aku sangat sangat menyukai kopi. Aku termasuk pemilih dalam mengkomsumsinya.

Aku tidak terlalu suka kopi pekat nan hitam. Akan terasa lebih pas jika dicampur sedikit creamer dan satu sendok gula. Aku juga tidak terlalu suka kopi yang dicampur dengan susu. Seakan kopi itu kehilangan wajah aslinya. Bukan berarti aku tidak pernah meminum kopi yang pekat nan hitam dan yang dicampur susu. Hanya saja jarang, sangat jarang.

Dari sekian banyak coffee shop di kota ini. Hanya ada satu café yang membuatku betah dan tidak berpindah ke lain cafe.

“Cofe”, kepanjangan dari Coffee Café.

Dari namanya saja, sudah bisa ditebak bahwa café ini berhubungan dengan segala jenis kopi. Memang sedikit terdengar seperti surganya para penggila kopi, seperti diriku ini. Suasana kopi-kopian di café itu sangatlah terasa. Dari aroma ruangan, cat dinding, perabot hingga desain, semuanya berhubungan dengan kopi.

Belum lagi hiasan-hiasan kecil dan gantungan kecil di depan pintu, semuanya menggunakan biji kopi. Orang yang merumuskan ide ini pastilah sangat kreatif. Karena biji kopi selain dijadikan hiasan dan gantukan, juga bisa digunakan sebagai pengharum ruangan.

Kadang, ada kalanya aku ingin bertemu dengan pemilik café ini. Berkenalan dengannya dan bercerita tentang segala sesuatu yang berhubungan dengan kopi. Kami bisa menjalin tali perteman atau berbagi tips tentang kopi. Mungkin.

Namun, setiap kali aku menyatakan keinginanku untuk bertemu sang pemilik café, jawaban yang kudapat hanyalah dia sedang tidak ada di tempat atau dia belum datang.

“Pagi sekali hari ini.” sapa salah seorang pelayan yang kukenal, bernama Maria.

Maria sudah bekerja disana sejak café itu dibuka. Dialah orang yang selalu mencatat pesananku. Hingga, aku merasa, dia sudah hafal benar dengan pesananku. Hanya saja demi ke-etisan profesinya, dia selalu menanyakan pesananku terlebih dahulu sebelum memesankannya ke dapur untukku.

“Iya. Hari ini aku bangun cukup pagi. Jadi, sekalian saja mampir pagian kesini dan mengisi perut sebelum berangkat ke kantor.”

Dia menganggukkan kepalanya. Lalu kami berbicara untuk beberapa saat, sebelum akhirnya dia beranjak ke dapur dan membawakan pesananku.

“Secangkir kopi untukmu dan sepiring roti bakar.” Maria meletakkan secangkir kopi panas itu dengan sangat hati-hati.

“Apakah kopi ini…….?” Aku menggantungkan kalimatku

“Ya. Seperti biasa, dari pengagum rahasiamu.”

Aku menghela nafas, tapi ada disertai sebuah tawaan. Akan berlangsung sampai kapankah hadiah kopi dari pengagum rahasia?

Semuanya dimulai sejak minggu kedua, aku menginjakkan kaki ke dalam café ini. Saat itu, aku mulai mendapatkan rasa betahku pada café itu. Pada minggu pertama aku hanya kesana dua kali. Namun, pada minggu kedua, aku menambah intensitas kunjunganku menjadi empat kali.

Aku cukup terkejut, saat sang pelayan-Maria, membawakan segelas kopi untukku, sebelum aku sempat memesan. Awalnya kukira Maria sudah menghafal pesananku, karna rasanya yang pas. Sedikit creamer dan satu sendok gula.

Tapi, semua terkaanku ternyata salah besar. Aku mengetahui kebenarannya, saat hendak membayar di kasir, penjaga kasir mengatakan padaku bahwa secangkir kopi itu hadiah untukku dari seseorang.

Aku berpikir. Pastilah orang yang menghadiahkan kopi ini memiliki indra pengecap yang sama denganku. Atau, jangan-jangan. Dia seorang psycho yang selama ini mengikutiku dan mengawasi setiap gerak gerikku.

Awalnya, aku merasa cukup aneh sekaligus takut akan tawaran kopi gratis tersebut. Bisa jadi, ada orang yang membenciku dan menghadiahkan kopi racun padaku. Tapi, semua kecurigaan itu menghilang tergantikan oleh kebiasaan baru. Secara tidak sadar, aku selalu menunggu secangkir kopi itu setiap harinya.

“Apa kamu tidak ingin tahu siapa yang menjadi pengagum rahasiamu?” Maria kembali bertanya, seusai melayani pengunjung lainnya.

“Apa kau tahu siapa orangnya?”

Maria menggeleng pelan, “Yang mengetahui hal ini hanya Manager kami, tapi dia tidak pernah mau memberitahukannya ketika aku bertanya.”

Aku meletakkan kembali cangkir kopi itu ke tempatnya. Lalu mendongakkan kepalaku menghadap Maria, “Tidak apa-apa. Jika orang ini memang ingin bertemu denganku, pastilah dia akan menemuiku. Mungkin belum waktunya bagi kami untuk bertemu.”

Maria kembali menganggukkan kepalanya dengan penuh semangat. Entah karena dia setuju dengan pendapatku, atau dia hanya ingin menyenangiku.

“Aku harus pergi sekarang.” Aku meyerahkan selembar lima puluh ribuan ketangan Maria, “Sisanya sebagai tips menemaniku ngobrol.”

Kugantungkan tas channel bewarna hitam yang baru kubeli minggu lalu ke samping bahuku. Berdiri dengan perlahan dan melangkahkan kaki keluar dari café tersebut. Jam tangan yang berada di tangan kananku menunjukkan bahwa jika aku tidak sampai kantor dalam waktu 15 menit, maka aku akan terkena denda.

Seharusnya, aku tidak berbicara panjang lebar dengan Maria. Seharusnya aku melahap sarapanku lebih cepat. Karena sibuk menyalahkan diri sendiri, aku tidak menyadari bahwa ada seseorang yang sedang berada di depanku. Dengan kecepatan berjalanku yang setengah berlari, rasanya tidak mungkin untuk tidak menyenggol orang tersebut.

Dugaanku kali ini tepat. Orang itu terdorong ke belakang. Begitu juga denganku.

“Maafkan aku.” Aku membungkukkan badanku berkali-kali.

“Tidak apa-apa.” Dia membalas, kemudian melanjutkan langkahnya

Aku mengerutkan keningku. Sepertinya aku pernah bertemu dengan orang itu. Tapi, yang tidak dapat kuingat, kapan dan dimana.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Tale

Huaaahhh..
Just finished the newest chinese drama in my busy week.
Hahaha!!
Can't be help!
Anyway, I'm not forget about my other project.
I did the thesis proposal in my lunch time.
And did the project in my holiday time.
So, the time that I used to watch DVD was my sleep time.
That's the reason, why I'm insomia nowadays.
Coz, I'm used with it.

Let me share a little about this newest chinese drama.
Do u ever heard about" The Legend of White Snake?"
I know you do.
It is a famous tale. And even it has been showed as Opera in many countries, with below tagline:
"One thousand years of meditation.
One magical transformation.
One chance encounter.
One miraculous love.
One shattering betrayal."
But this time, the drama that I watched not focus on the White Snake, but more to the Green Snake. It called "White Snake Sequel". I thought it will be better to change the title into "Green Snake" hahaha.
The story about how the Green Snake learn the meaning of love. Then falling in love with one of the God that have been sent down and become human. How she can understand White Snake feeling when first meet Xu Xian.
It's really a good drama. I like it, just hate the end.
Why most of the tale from ancient time, especially from Chinese never had a loveable, sweet ending for its tale. Seems like the contract with the Disney tale, bout the Cinderella, Sleeping Princess, etc.

Anyway, I really like any kind of tale. hahha.

Monday, February 22, 2010

Jarak

Jarak terjauh diantara aku dan kamu,
bukan dipisahkan oleh hidup dan mati.
bukan juga dipisahkan oleh gunung dan laut.
Jarak itu hadir,
saat aku berada di hadapanmu,
dan kamu tidak menyadari bahwa aku telah jatuh cinta padamu.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Tidak

Jangan bertanya.
Aku mohon jangan bertanya lagi.
Walau kau tidak tahu jawabannya.
Aku mohon berpura-puralah,
seakan kau sudah tahu jawabannya.
Aku hanya ingin kau tahu.
Aku tidak setegar yang kau pikirkan.
Aku tidak sekuat yang kau bayangkan.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Someone Wedding Out There!!


I'm quite grumpy and upset for a while. I have an appointment with my classmate to Cemara, yet, it had to be cancel because I need to accompany my Mom to a wedding party. On the other hand, my Dad will went to the other wedding party.

What a GREAT DAY? Huh??
I miss my classmate a lot. I want to gather with them altogether. I really do.
I didnt want to miss that moment. Not a single one.
I miss the laughter, the jokes and everything about us.
Uggghhh!!!!

But, it's okay.
Let's meet up in other time. hehehe...

And at the wedding party, I met my besty-Luviani.
We took some pictures and have a small talk before returned to our table.


Dont you think that my skin is to fair??Hahaha..
Need to tan my skin more often.

Nothing much I can said about the wedding.
Just an ordinary wedding, nothing special.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Lunar New Year, Day 4

The sense of Lunar New year almost gone.
So, let's see what have I do today.

Me & Nora went to Thamrin to watch "14 Blades", coz all of our friends had watched it, and only left us.
I really like the Qinglong character. hahahha....And definitely heart the 14 blades.
Can I have one set , please?? hehehhe...

Then we went back to Nora house.
And waited Peter to fetch us.

After that, we went for the second movie trips, this time, we have 8 people to watch altogether.
There were Me, Nora, Etrie, Felicia, Peter, Andrian, Jojo, Dennis.

The second movie was "Percy Jackson, The Lightning Thief"
There are one thing that I dont understand.
There's only 12 god, but why they have so much children??
I dont get that point. hahaha...

What we did next after the movie was finished??
We went to "Bung Ong". It's a 24 hours resto.
We have a porridge for our dinner.





Suddenly.
Blackout coming to town AGAIN!!
What the Heck!!
So, we decided to bubar-gerak.
hahahha

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Lunar New Year, Day 3

We were plan that we are going to everybody's house that we know.
unfortunately, most of their parents not at home.
So, pur earning in red pockets are decrease from last year.
Otherwise, last year more enjoyable than this year.
Too many friends that not known-well.
Hooking up together was not a good ideas.
So, we just seperated ourself.
Me, Nora, Etrie, Dennis and Andrian, going to Thamrin, for watch a movie,
"From Paris with Love".




Monday, February 15, 2010

Lunar New Year, Day 2

Hot!!
Hot!!
Earth getting hotter and hotter each day.

I wake up around 10 a.m.
Opps, Peter has waited for me. He had an open house at his house today, and he's gonna picked me up.
I told him to wait for a while.
Need some preparation.
Then, after I got into the car, we went to Nora house.
Got another red pocket!!
Hore....
Then from there, we were waiting for Dennis and Andrian ( I got a new friend, here.)
Chit chat for a while, take a pictures.


Then, we went to Peter house.
Having "Lontong" as our lunch, then took some pictures as well and planned for where-to-go-tonight.





Around 2 p.m, I got called from my Dad.
I gotta go home that time, coz we're going to another family house.

So, we decided to gathers again at 4 p.m.
This time, many people joined us. Around 18 people. hahaha..
I love this crowded gathering.
We had our dinner at Cup& Cino around 7 p.m, then our army started to spread around 8p.m.

Last place, that we visited, was Party Garden-the new resto in the town.
Heart the decoration, yet, not the food.
*photos will be uploded as soon as possible*

Well, I thought it's a tired day.


Sunday, February 14, 2010

Lunar New Year, Day 1

Horeee!!
It's Lunar New Year now.
Since I was a child, I always excited waiting for this day coming to the town. hahhaha...
I loves the red pocket, the family & friends gathering, the yummy cookiest.

But, it's all changed little by little each year.
The excitement decrease year by year.
Now, I felt no more excitement.

Yes, I do enjoys the Lunar New Year.
I do loves all the red pocket, gathering and cookiest.
Yet, it seems to be just an ordinary.
Nothing special.

Well, fortunately, today,
I can gather with all my lovely cousins.
We did lots of chit chat and games.
Ate whatever cant be ate.
Forgot about the weight for a while, let's enjoys the luxurious of the life. hahahha...

I also pray a lot on each temple.
Maybe around 3 temples, with seems to be exploded by the humans crowd.

My praying :
- wish that I can aim my dreams this year.
- wish that my first novel will be published soon.
- wish that I can get more inspiration.
- wish that I can get someone to share bout this life. ( I though that I'm ready for a relationship. A serious one. I'm tired of playing around, fool others n mine feeling.)
- wish everybody that I loves and hates will get the bless from godness, fully by prosperity.
- wish that...............................( last wishes always keep for myself. :Q )

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Langit, Bulan dan Bintang

Malam ini. Langit bertaburan bintang. Seakan mereka sedang berkomplot untuk menyerang sang bulan yang tertutup oleh kabut malam. Bintang dan bulan. Keduanya memiliki posisi yang sama penting di hati langit.


Namun, ada kalanya sang bintang lenyap tak berbekas. Digantikan bulan yang bersinar dengan cahaya kemenangan. Di lain waktu, sang bulan menghilang dalam kabut malam. Bertukar posisi dengan bintang yang memenuhi ruang kosong di langit.


Tanpa bulan dan bintang pun, langit tetap bersikap angkuh dalam kegelapan malam. Pertanyaannya adalah, ‘Apakah bulan dan bintang saling menghindari satu sama lain? Atau langit tidak bisa mempertemukan mereka berdua pada malam yang sama?’


Aku dan dia bersahabat sejak kami masih duduk di bangku sekolah menegah. Tidak ada yang lebih mengerti diriku daripada dia. Bahkan pacarku sendiri pun tidak memahami diriku seperti dia.


Dia bisa menebak apa yang ada dalam isi kepalaku. Dia bisa membaca isi hatiku. Bahkan dia juga tahu apa yang aku inginkan pada saat tertentu. Sampai ada saat dimana aku merasa. Dia adalah aku dan aku adalah dia.


Kami seperti potongan puzzle yang saling melengkapi satu sama lain. Mungkin aku tidak memahami dirinya seperti dia memahami diriku. Namun, aku selalu ada disana disaat dia membutuhkan seseorang. Aku selalu menjadi sandaran bagi dirinya saat dirinya sedang rapuh.


Dan ketergantungan ini terus berlanjut hingga suatu hari, dia mengajakku bertemu di taman belakang, tempat rahasia kami sejak masih bersekolah.


“Kurasa sudah saatnya kita menghentikan kebersamaan ini.” Dia berucap dengan mimik wajah yang setenang air tanpa riak.


“Maksudmu?”


“Kita harus berhenti bertemu dan berbicara mulai saat ini. Pacarku selalu cemburuan saat melihat aku berbicara atau bertemu denganmu.”


Aku menatapnya dengan tatapan tidak percaya. Apakah benar yang sedang dia katakana barusan? Aku sangat berharap bahwa dia sedang bercanda atau sedang mengerjaiku. Kutepuk pundaknya dengan keras dan memaksakan suara tawa yang keras.


“Sudahlah. Aku tidak akan termakan tipuanmu kali ini. Sudah basi.”


“Aku tidak sedang bercanda. Aku serius. Pacarku menyuruhku untuk memilih dia atau aku. Kau tahu, aku sangat mencintainya, dan tidak mungkin bagiku untuk melepasnya. Jadi….”


Aku terdiam sejenak, tapi mulutku segera mengambil alih, “Jadi kau ingin putus hubungan denganku?”


Sekarang, gantian dia yang terdiam. Aku juga terdiam. Tidak tahu apa yang harus kukatakan. Dulu, disaat pacarku cemburu dan memojokkanku pada situasi seperti ini, pada akhirnya, aku tetap memilih dia.


Karna bagiku dia lebih penting dari siapapun. Walaupun aku sangat mencintai pacarku, namun aku tidak mungkin bisa hidup tanpa dia disisiku. Tapi, kenapa saat situasi ini berbalik, dia tidak mengambil keputusan yang sama denganku?


Kenapa? Pertanyaan itu terus berteriak dalam kepalaku. Semakin lama, semakin keras.


Dia berdiri, menatapku dalam hitungan detik, lalu berjalan pergi. Aku terus menatap punggung dia, yang semakin lama, semakin jauh, lalu menghilang.


Apakah aku sudah kehilangan dia?

***


Waktu silih berganti. Tanpa terasa dua tahun pun telah berlalu tanpa kehadirannya di kehidupanku. Ada kalanya aku bisa sangat merindukan dia, ingin bertemu dengannya dan bercanda tawa seperti dulu. Tapi, aku tahu semuanya sudah tidak mungkin sekarang.


Dia lebih memilih pacarnya, daripada sahabatnya.


Namun, takdir memang sulit untuk ditebak. Kadang dia akan membuatmu diam tanpa kata dengan apa yang akan kau hadapi selanjutnya.


Pada suatu sore, aku kembali pergi ke taman dimana cerita antara aku dan dia berakhir. Aku menghabiskan waktu berjam-jam untuk merenung.


Tanpa dia aku tetap bisa bertahan hingga hari ini. Tanpa dia aku tetap bisa melanjutkan hidupku seperti biasa. Mungkin ada ataupun tanpa dia, aku tetap baik-baik saja.


Tiba-tiba, terdengar suara langkah kaki dari belakang. Aku tidak menoleh, karna tanpa melihat pun, aku sudah tahu siapa yang datang.


“Kau masih sering kemari?” dia bertanya


“Kadang-kadang.” Balasku singkat


“Bagaimana keadaanmu?”


“Baik.”


Aku mulai merasa bosan dengan semua basa-basi ini. Aku berdiri, menatapnya sejenak, lalu meninggalkan dirinya disana. Sama seperti yang dia lakukan padaku, dulu.


“Mungkinkah bagi kita untuk terus seperti dulu? Aku merasa tanpa dirimu, diri ini tidaklah lengkap.”


“Bukankah kau bilang kau mencintai pacarmu dan lebih memilih dirinya daripada sahabatmu ini?” aku mulai kehilangan kesabaran. Ingin rasanya aku meluapkan semua amarah yang tertahan di hati ini.


“Memang. Namun, kau juga sama pentingnya bagiku. Walaupun bulan dan bintang tidak bisa akur. Walaupun langit boleh kehilangan bulan dan bintang. Tapi bulan tidak boleh kehilangan langit. Karna tanpa langit, bulan tidaklah berarti.”


Aku berbalik dan tersenyum padanya.


Akhirnya dia mengerti tentang kisah bulan, bintang dan langit.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Disappointed

When Sadness come near to me,
I still can faced it.
But, how about it is disappointed?
I have no courage to faced it.

In my life dictionary, disappointed is the feeling that I hated the most. Coz, it will make me tears non-stop. I hate when there was a game and in the end of the game, there must have a winner.
I dont like to be a loser, all I want to be just a WINNER. But, this is life. And life is all about cruel things. You can be always hang in the up-line, something you will go to the bottom place. And this time, I have to undergo to the bottom place.
Still remember about the apprentice project in my Leadership Subject?
Yeah! My team member lost the project. So our score will be deducted by 10. I'm okay with that penalty, but the main reason that make me can accepted it was :
- I have put so much effort in it.
- I waste so much time.
- I try so hard to make it the best of the best.
-I combine the unique and fresh concept.

BUT, I still dont understand why I can win this project.
The lecture said that we have so many lack point from our video commercial.
Maybe, I havent put that much effort in it. Maybe, I havent give the best one. Maybe, I have no courage to admit that I'm lost for this time.

THIS ALL make me tears non-stop. I'm definitely disaapointed to myself. Why I cant make the best one?
Why I can be the winner?
Am I just one of the people that cant accept the lost? Don't I ?

Well, I will share the video commercial as soon as I get the copy from the project manager.

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Nursing Home

Do u ever think bout, where will u be?
When u are old and useless. When u just can be a burden to other people?
Will u be abandoned by ur family? The one that loves u and u love ?

I never think about it until today.
Me and my friends visited the Nursing Home at the morning. We have planned to visited it last year before christmas, but we have no time. So, we planned it one more time, and we did it today.
There are about 94-98 grandma and grandpa in that nursing home.
The first time, when we arrived, I have a feeling of sad, sympathic and wanna hug them one by one.
Some of them cant fed themselves. Some of them need a wheel chair. Some of them have no teeth. Some of them need a lot of cares and love.
But. Where are their family?
They being abandoned by their family like a trash there. I thought that their family have cool-hearted. How could a family throw their family away?
I will never do it to my parents. Never and ever.
When they old and useless, they need our protection like they used to give us when we still a child.
They need our loves and cares like they give us till the last of their breath.
They need us to be their side like they never left us even for one second.
PLEASE!! Never did this kind of action to ur family.
Protect them. Give as many loves and cares like there's no tomorrow.
Be with them till their last step of path-life.

I will share some videos. I bet, maybe u could tears. Cause I did it.


I have no idea why the video cant be played.
Yet, I'll deal with it later.

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Team Project

Did you ever watched "The Apprentice" reality show?
About how Donal Trump will choose one of the best from 18 candidates?

In my eighth semester, I got a subject called "Leadership". Basicly, my lecture said that it has a strong related to the The Aprrentice show. About how a person born as a leader or not. About how a person shape his/her personality to become a better leader.
But do you know what is a leader?
Leader is someone who set a vision and let other people do that vision. Someone that can bound a closely relationship with his/her team members. Someone who will be respect not in the office but outside as well.

I likes this subject so much. Especially, the way that the lecture gave lecturing was fabulous. I just love her teaching way!!
Then, in our third meeting, my lecture started something new in class. She would not explain anything about the topic that we gonna have that week. She just simply told us to read our textbook.
She said, "What for, you bought the textbook, if you never read it? What for, I explain anything that have printed detail in you textbook? We can do other challenging things."

Then, she let us watched "The Apprentice". Yet, as the result, we must answer some of the questions that have been provided.
Then, we must guess, which team will be the winner. Why? Was the leader of the team did their best? Explain! Who will be fired? What the reason behind Mr. Trumph hired that person?

I quiet fun. We can learned a lot even though, just from the show. But we really learned a lot bout Leadership. In the end of the show, our lecture will discuss all the problem that occur in the show, how to solve it. And she taught us to analys problem from subjective-side not the vice versa.

Then, this week-in the fourth week. She divided us into 2 group. Each group will have the same project and got 1 project manager. The task was about, we have to make a commercial and campaign about our College. The winner group will get additional 10 point, but the loser will be deduct 10 point.

Simply right? Just sounds that! The actually conditions, it was hard. We have to created a commercial and advertisements that comes out with a fresh idea and unique design. We worked hard for it. And I believe my group will wins the project.
Just, it seems like everyone is getting tired, due to the mid-test and assignments. We get upset to each other. And for minutes, I can control my emotions. I get grumpy and keep yelling to my Project manager. At the last, I am apologize. We are a team, we should can solve any difficulties that we through. So, everything will goes smoothly, wont it??
I just hope so.

The due date of the project is next Tuesday. We have to submit the commercial, campaign, and give a briefly opening speech.
Hope we will be the winner team!!

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Addiction !!

Currently drama series that I watched :

Autumn Concerto ( until ep 18 out of 20)
The Myth ( until ep 10 out of 50 )
Daikusen Proposal ( until ep 7 out of 11)
Niu Lang Zhe Nu ( until ep 34 out of 35 )
vampire Diaries ( season 1 epi 10 )
Detective Monk ( season 1 ep 1 out of season 7 )
Momo Love ( just finished it. epi 13 out of 13 )
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