Happy Hallowen

Happy Hallowen everybody!!!

Graaoorr!!

I wake up a bit late today.

Then have a bath and drove myself to Sun Plaza.

I got something that I need to bought.

After that, my Dad drove me & Trie to P.Rame to bought some stuff for our zombie character,

and, arrived IT&B at 2pm.

Very very late from the schedule, 11.30 am.

hahahha...

It's okay!!

All of the zombies were late as well.

We did our make-up for about an hour before GR and placed position for the zombie.

Today is a bit tired.

I just want to say that today is awesome.

I scared so many people.

But....

Some of them take the pictures of me....( as the zombie )

Some of them unaccidentally step my feet

Some of them push me to hard, make me almost felt down.

The worst was,

One of the visitor too afraid and didnt know that they push the big iron and

it felt down and hit my mouth.

IT'S BLEEDING!!

Now, I know, how hard to be zombie.

Stand all night.

Scream till voice gone.

Being bully by some visitor that didnt afraid.

I never want to become zombie again...

hahahha..

Once is enough!!

Oopss...

I almost forgot,

my twins' friend, Devina & Desy, is b'day today.

So, "Happy B'day Hallowen Girls!!"

I will end my diary for today.

Enjoy the pictures, everybody!!

Grandpa B'day

Ooops....

I forget!!

Today is Grandpa B'day.

I just went back from teaching and I heard the news from my MOm.

So, I called my Grandpa.

Said "Happy B'day" for him and,

wish that he can be my side as well till the last day of mine.

But, My Grandpa told me, he was too old already.

No need a long age anymore.

All this year was enough for him.

But, not for me.

I just be with him for 20 years, and it still far from enough.

It's my Gradnpa 74 B'Day.

And I wish he can live till he reach the age of 100.

I will always pray for u Grandpa.

Coz I already lost 1 Grandpa, and I dont want to lost the other one.

Love you, Grandpa.

XOXO

Daddy B'day

Happy B'day Daddy.....

Happy B'day Daddy.....

Happy B'day....

Happy B'day....

Happy B'day Daddy.....

Love u Dad...

XOXO.....

Hmmmphh....

Why Daddy dont like to take a pictures??

Daddy is the opposite of me.

I love to take pictures so much, and he doesnt.

Well, never mind.

I can capture all the pictures in my heart.

For the celebration, Daddy just bring all of the family for dinner.

A small party.

It's my Daddy 52 b'day...

Getting older each year....

Wish my daddy will always by my side, till the last day of mine. (huahuahuahua...)

Inspiration

Wuuuahhh....

Sometimes, I can write a good story.

Sometimes, I can write the worst story.

What wrong with my head??

Hmmphh....

Maybe it's all because of the inspiration, situasion, moody and the time I write the story.

It's okay.

Most of my friends still like to read my story hahahha...

Hopes that I can write a better story......

Second Change

N.B : Sambungan dari cerita "Happy Birthday", posted on 21 Oct '09.

Tidak semua cerita akan berakhir dengan bahagia. Kadang kebahagiaan itu hanya terdapat dalam dongeng cinderella, tapi tidak dalam kehidupan nyata. Untuk mendapatkan kebahagiaan tersebut butuh pengorbanan yang besar. Tapi, jika kembali dipikir, apakah kebahagiaan tersebut sepadan dengan pengorbanan besar tersebut?

Semenjak Li Xue mendapati bahwa pacarnya, Yuan Xi, telah menghianati dirinya. Li Xue semakin menutup dirinya terhadap dunia luar. Untuk sementara waktu, dia mengambil cuti dari pekerjaannya. Hari-hari dilalui hanya dengan berdiam diri di kamar.

"Halo." dengan nada lemas, Li Xue menjawab panggilan yang berasal dari ponsel putih flipnya

"Aku ingin bertemu." dari seberang terdengar suara Yuan Xi

Kepala Li Xue mendadak terasa sakit saat mendengar suara orang yang telah menyakitinya. Dia mengusap keningnya, "Aku sedang tidak ingin bertemu denganmu."

"Ada apa denganmu? Sudah berhari-hari ini kamu tidak ingin bertemu denganku. Juga tidak membalas smsku. Aku tidak suka dengan sikapmu ini." Yuan Xi mempertinggi suaranya dia akhir perkataannya.

"Kamu bertanya ada apa denganku? Seharusnya kamu bertanya pada dirimu sendiri. Apa yang sudah kamu lakukan kepadaku."

"Apa yang sudah kulakukan?" pertanyaan dibalas dengan pertanyaan. Yuan Xi menjadi bingung dengan perkataan Li Xue. Dia tidak mengerti apa yang sudah terjadi sebenarnya.

"Kamu masih tidak mau mengaku. Baiklah." Li Xue menarik nafas sejenak, "Pada hari ulang tahunmu, aku datang ke apartmentmu. Aku ingin memberimu surprise, tapi ternyata malah aku yang mendapatkan surprise darimu. Kamu sudah menghianatiku, Yuan Xi."

Li Xue sudah tidak dapat menahan air matanya. Perlahan, tapi pasti, air mata tersebut jatuh dari pelupuk matanya. Li Xue menutup mulutnya dengan sebelah tangan supaya Yuan Xi tidak dapat mendengar suara tangisannya.

"Maafkan aku."

"Jangan meminta maaf setelah menyakiti hatiku." Li Xue kehilangan kendali dan menjerit dengan segala tenaga yang ada, "Selamanya, aku tidak mungkin bisa memaafkanmu."

"Li Xue, memang aku telah menghianatimu, tapi percayalah selama ini, hanya kamu yang aku cintai. Tidak ada orang lain lagi di hatiku selain kamu."

"Aku berharap aku bisa mempercayaimu lagi, tapi maaf, aku tidak sanggup."

"Li Xue...."

"Yuan Xi" Li Xue memotong, "Kita putus saja."

Lalu telepon ditutup dan sejak saat itu, nomor ponsel yang biasa digunakan Li Xue sudah tidak pernah diaktifkan lagi.

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Satu tahun sudah berlalu sejak putusnya Yuan Xi dan Li Xue. Dan sudah setahun juga Li Xue pergi ke Aussie untuk melanjutkan studinya. Tepat di hari ulang tahun Yuan Xi, dia kembali ke negara asalnya.

"Aku merasa ada sesuatu yang membuatku sedih saat aku memasuki apartment ini, tapi aku tidak tahu mengapa." Li Xue mengungkapkan perasaannya kepada salah satu teman baiknya, Fang Lin.

"Apakah kamu tidak mengingat sesuatu? Atau seseorang?" Fang Lin kembali bertanya

"Aku masih belum bisa mengingatnya."

"Jangan dipaksakan. Pelan-pelan saja."

Saat berada di Aussie, Li Xue mengalami kecelakaan, dan sebagian dari sel otaknya terdapat pembekuan darah, maka untuk menyelamatkan jiwanya. Dokter bedah di sana harus melakukan operasi pengangkatan sebagian sel otak yang terdapat pembekuan darah. Tidak ada efek negatif dalam operasi tersebut, hanya saja, pasien akan mengalami amnesia sebagian.

Dan bagian yang dilupakan oleh Li Xue adalah tentang Yuan Xi. Tidak ada satu kenangan pun yang tersisa. Dari awal pertemuan hingga putusnya hubungan mereka.

Dokter berkata bahwa semua ini bisa terjadi karena si pasien sendiri tidak sanggup memikul pukulan berat yang dihasilkan oleh memori tersebut, maka si pasien lebih memilih untuk menghapusnya.

"Lin, apakah aku mengenal temanmu yang berulang tahun?" Li Xue berjalan keluar dari lift

"Mungkin."

Bel ditekan setidaknya ada lima kali, dan pada saat itu, seorang cowok membukakan pintu. Saat Li Xue melihat cowok tersebut, hanya terasa sangat sakit. Seakan sebuah luka yang sudah sembuh kembali terkoyak.

"Li Xue? Kamu sudah kembali." tanpa sadar Yuan Xi memeluk Li Xue dengan erat, "Aku sangat merindukanmu."

Dengan kasar, Li Xue mendorong tubuh Yuan Xi ke belakang, "Maaf. Aku tidak mengenalmu."

"Ini aku Yuan Xi. Kamu sudah melupakanku?"

"Aku sungguh tidak ingat kamu siapa, hanya saja, saat aku melihatmu, aku merasakan sesuatu yang aneh. Ada perasaan rindu, tapi juga benci. Apakah kita pernah bertemu sebelumnya?"

Untuk sejenak, Yuan Xi melayangkan pandangannya pada Fang Lin, berharap temannya tersebut mau menceritakan apa yang terjadi.

"Dia mengalami kecelakaan saat di Aussie. Dia kehilangan sebagian ingatannya."

"Benarkah?"

Li Xue mengangguk sebagai jawaban atas pertanyaan Yuan Xi. Cowok itu terdiam sejenak. Berusaha mencerna informasi yang baru diterimanya.

"Kita bisa memulainya dari awal."

Li Xue masih tidak mengerti dengan maksud perkataan Yuan Xi.

"Namaku, Yuan Xi" cowok itu mengulurkan tangan kanannya.

"Aku Li Xue."

"Senang berkenalan denganmu." Yuan Xi tersenyum dengan tulus dan dalam hati berjanji bahwa dia tidak akan menyia-nyiakan kesempatan kedua yang telah diberikan untuk dirinya.

New Blog's Skin

How is it??

About my new blog skin??

I edited it for about 2 hours.

Looking for the background.

Edit the blog banner.

Frame my profile picture.

Fuihhh....

Tired....

But satisfy.

Somehow, I keep reminds myself about how much I love the colour of blue.

Wanna know how my future house will be look like??

Check this out.

The Blue House, but I want to paint it sky blue or baby blue,

not this kind of blue.

The living room is perfect

First bedroom

Second bedroom

Master bedroom

The kitchen

The living room, the blue colour is too dark. >.<

As well as the bathroom, too dark. >,<

For overall I will paint my future house with baby blue or sky blue, then everything will be perfect.

Hoping I will get enough money to buy my future house.

( tok...tok....tok...)

The B'day Party of Dudud

As what I said earlier in my blog,

Mellis will held her b'day party today.

The invitation only for her closest friend.

The party was held at "Ta Lau Pan".

We have a very very big dinner hahahha....

Everybody keep silent when the food is coming.

None of us brought the camera, so no pictures was taken in there.....

After the dinner party, we headed to Cambridge.

We just didint want to finished this party too soon.

And the narcist time is began.

We took pictures by using Mellis' HP.

And here are the pictures....

Blur....but remains happiness.

I loved the time beign gathered like this....

Heart them all....

hahahha......

BORING

Wew....

Boring...

Waiting for my brother.....

Since I driven my own car, I didnt think that driving is nice.

Waiting is the most boring activities, and in front of my brother school,

there were five policemen.

Waiting for money...money....money.....

Wew....

Just forget it!!

To make myself fun, I took some pictures.

The Hardest Time

"If someone dissapointed with herself, to whom she have to blamed??"

I didnt know, why this feeling appear. I never wanted this feelling. I felt like I'm a loser. I tried my best, but the outcomes is far away from my expectation. What should I do?? Cry wont help anything, but, cry make me better.

I had when things didnt come as what I're planned before. It ruins myself.

But, I'm happy.

Even though I'm in my hardest time now, my friends still besides me.

They dont speak much.

They dont ask much.

They dont act much.

But, they are there when I turn myself.

I'm not alone this time.

And I feel grateful for this.

Happy Birthday

Surprise.

Sejak dari bangun tidur hingga sekarang, waktu makan siang. Hanya kata itu yang terus tergiang dalam kepala Li Xie. Ya, surprise. Kejutan.

Hari ini ulang tahun Yuan Xi, kekasih yang sudah dipacarinya selama lima tahun terakhir ini. Yuan Xi, seorang cowok yang sangat baik, pengertian dan selalu mengerti akan dirinya. Setiap kali ada pertengkaran, cowok itu akan selalu mengalah pada dirinya.

Terlalu sempurna untuk digambarkan. Di zaman sekarang ini, memang sangat susah mendapatkan seorang pacar yang sebaik Yuan Xi, maka Li Xie sangat mencintainya dengan sepenuh hati. Merasa bahwa ini semua adalah keajaiban yang terbaik yang pernah terjadi pada dirinya.

Hari ini, Li Xie sengaja tidak menelpon atau xmx pada Yuan Xi. Dan cowok itu pun tidak mencarinya. Memang sebulan terakhir ini, mereka jarang berkomunikasi karena kesibukkan masing-masing. Yuan Xi sibuk dengan pekerjaannya sebagai seorang pengacara terkenal yang harus menangani ribuan kasus dan keluar masuk ruang persidangan. Di siang hari, Yuan Xi menggunakan waktunya untuk menyelidiki kasus yang sedang ditanganinya serta mencari bukti-bukti yang bersangkutan. Di malam hari, dia lebih memilih berdiam diri di rumah, berusaha mencari cara untuk memenangkan kasusnya dengan segala bukti dan analisis yang dia miliki.

Sedangkan Li Xie, seorang guru lukis yang jam kerjanya hanya dari siang hari hingga sore hari. Awal keduanya berkenalan sangatlah lucu, jika ingin diceritakan.

Saat itu, Yuan Xi, masih belum tamat dari kuliahnya dan sedang melakukan magang kerja di salah satu kantor advokat terkenal. Li Xie sudah menjadi guru lukis lebih dari 7 tahun di sebuah tempat lukis milik paman angkatnya.

Di tempat lukis tersebutlah, mereka pertama kali bertemu. Yuan Xi, disuruh atasannya tempat dia magang untuk mencari seorang saksi yang bernama Li Xuan, yang bertempat tinggal di jalan yang sama tempat Li Xie tinggal.

Entah karena jodoh atau kebetulan atau Yuan Xi yang terlalu tegang, dia menganggap Li Xie sebagai Li Xuan dan terus memohonnya untuk menjadi saksi. Mengikuti pulang ke rumah dan menunggu berjam-jam di luar rumahnya.

Namun, siapa sangka bahwa takdir ternyata sudah turun tangan. Berkat kesalahpahaman tersebut, mereka akhirnya menjadi sepasang kekasih.

Li Xie, menelepon pamannya untuk meminta cuti kerja pada hari ini. Dia ingin mempersiapkan surprise dengan sempurna, supaya Yuan Xi bisa lebih sayang lagi pada dirinya. Hal pertama yang dilakukannya adalah pergi ke toko kue. Dia memilih Avocado cake, cake favorite Yuan Xi. Kemudian dia melanjutkan perjalanannya ke sebuah toko tempat menjual perlengkapan untuk pesta. Disana, dia membeli dua buah topi ulang tahun dan sekotak lilin kecil bertulisan 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY'.

Setelah merasa barang yang hendak dibeli sudah lengkap, Li Xie bersiap-siap melajukan mobilnya menuju apartment Yuan Xi. Mobilnya sengaja diparkir agak jauh dari apartment tersebut, supaya Yuan Xi tidak mengetahui kedatangannya.

Apartment Yuan Xi, terletak di lantai 25 dari total 40 lantai. Dengan mudah Li Xie memasuki apartment tersebut, karena memang Yuan Xi pernah memberikan duplikat kunci apartmentnya kepada Li Xie. Jadi kapan saja, Li Xie hendak kesana, dia bisa masuk duluan tanpa harus menunggu Yuan Xi pulang.

Dulu sebelum mereka berdua sesibuk sekarang, Li Xie sering menunggu Yuan Xi pulang hingga ketiduran di sofa. Kadang Yuan Xi akan membangunkannya dan mengajaknya makan malam di luar. Kadang Yuan Xi bisa merasa tidak tega untuk membangunkannya dan hanya menyelimutinya, Kadang Yuan Xi duduk berjam-jam disampingnya hanya untuk memperhatikannya tidur.

Jam sudah menunjukkan pukul tujuh malam. Sebentar lagi Yuan Xi akan pulang, bisik Li Xie dalam hatinya. Dengan hati-hati, dia mengeluarkan cake dari dalam kotaknya dan menusukkan lilin kecil diatas cake tersebut. Dengan semangat dan bahagia, dia menyalakan lilin kecil yang bewarna-warni.

Dari depan pintu, terdengar suara langkah kaki dan bunyi kunci diputar. Li Xie segera bersembunyi di dalam sebuah lemari pakaian yang menghadap ke arah tempat tidur.

Yuan Xi membuka pintu dan masuk ke dalam rumah. Terdengar suara tertawaan lebih dari satu orang. Yuan Xi tidak sendirian. Dia bersama seseorang. Li Xie mencoba untuk melihat siapa yang sedang bersama dengan Yuan Xi lewat celah kecil dari balik lemari pakaian.

Li Xie terkejut, saat dia mendengar suara wanita tertawa yang cukup keras. Beberapa saat kemudian, dari posisi yang sama, dia melihat Yuan Xi dan wanita tersebut berpelukan dan menjatuhkan diri mereka masing-masing ke tempat tidur. Mereka berciuman dan berpelukan seakan mereka berdua memang pasangan.

Li Xie tidak sanggup menghentikan air mata yang mengalir dari kedua bola matanya. Dia menutup mulutnya dengan sebelha tangan supaya tidak mengeluarkan suara. Dengan helaan nafas yang berat, dia meniup lilin kecil yang sedang ternyala.

"Happy Birthday" ucapnya, kemudian meniup lilin kecil itu dengan satu kali tiupan.

I am NOT happy

I have everything.

I have a warm and lovely family.

I have a bunch of best friends.

I have a smart brain.

I have a good family background.

I have my dreams.

I have a perfect life.

The ONE that I dont have.

I dont owns the happiness.

Mellis B'day

After the class and the exam, Me, Nor & Trie, going to clover.

Buying the cake and headed to her house.

We want to make a surprise, so we are calling to her house, telling her maid to open the door for us.

But the maid just to (dunno what to say), telling her and ruins our surprise.

When mellis saw Etrie, three of us, running to the kitchen door and hiding in the bathroom.

What a stupid act.

Then, mellis come and push the door, make three of us shock.

At least, she feel happy because our surprise.

Happy b'day Mellis Dudut.

We heart you.

Today is Mellis, my besties b'day.

She's not celebrating it today, due to our mid-test during this whole week.

So, she will postponed it till this Satuday.

A private and small celebration.

Then, she treated us at KFC.

The first treat, coz the second treat will be held this Saturday.

Well, we'll wait for it.

Happy Sunday

I'm not in my mood on going out today....

The weather is hot, and I felt that I wanna explode.

To many problems to be faced.

And tommorow, my mid test is gonna start...

So, I decided to sleep.

I woke up at 3pm, mellis text to me, that she will pick me up in the 20 minutes.

Have a hurry bath and dress as simple as I can.

The Sun Plaza is so crowded, just like Pasar Rame.

Huiihhh...

Dont like the crowded place like this.

So, me & Mel, headed to Ace Hardware, looking for some car accessoris.

Then, we're having our pre-dinner at sushi tei....

After that, we continuing to Gramedia.

Hunting for a new novels.

I bought snow country, the writer has passed away, from Japan and get the nobel write for this novel.

Wish that I could be like HIM. (tok..tok..tok...)

With the range time of one hour, we are having our dinner.

It's a new place in Sun Plaza.

It called "Mr. Pancake".

I love the design, feel like home...

This is what we order...

The pancake platter

The chicken mushroom pancake

Lychee Iced Tea

Plus, our new novels,

"Anak Kos Dodol" & "Snow Country"

We're hoping that we can stay longer here, but the situation too crowded.

So, we decided to go home.

And this is the end of my report of my Happy Sunday.

An Umbrella at the Rainy Day

Just now, the sun still shining and sharing its warm to all people. In a minutes, it turns into cloudy and thunder keep calling for the rain. Maybe in an hours, the rain will shower the earth.

From far away, Carol is faster her walk. Wishing that the cloud will be kind-hearted and stop the rain from coming before she reaches a woody house.

That little woody house, located in the middle of forest, is a woody house that Carol built with her father when she moved to this city for the first time.

Her house is next to the forest, so in her leeway, she will went to the forest alone and made herself comfort. At that time, she hasn't got any friends. The only thing she can did, just playing with the trees.

She called it "Runaway House". Everytime, when she facing a problem at school or even her parents scolded and grumpy at her, the best way to escape was go to the "Runaway Home".

Eleven years has passed way since that day. In the last three years, she is sent to another country by her parents to continue her study.

The first day she came back is today. And the first thing she gonna do, is visiting her woody house.

Nothing change. Not herself, not her "Runaway House", not her memories. Everything still remains the same as she left.

Carol take a seat in a long chair in front of the house. It's start raining. And fortunately, it happens after she reached the house.

"I wish I can meet you." Carol talked to herself, lying her body to the whole chair and starts closing her eyes.

When she is in her way to the dreamland, someone is calling her, "Excuse me......"

Carol opens her eyes slowly and see that a man, around 40 years old, standing beside her and looking at her. She is aghast and quickly standing up her body.

"I'm sorry." the man looks regret for distrubing Carol's sleep, "I just want to ask for a permission to take shelter in here till the rain stops. May I, Miss??"

Carol doesn't response at him. She just looked at him deeply and silent.

"If you feel objection, I can go now."

Carol hold the man's wrist, "It's okay. I don't mind."

It's raining for almost one hours and it doesnt seems to be stopped soon. Now, Carol and the man are sitting side by side. Both of them involve in an interesting conversation. Seems like, they are two best friends that haven't met for a long time. They talked about family, hobbies, college and dreams to achieve.

Suddenly, the thunder screams out loud. The man is okay but not with Carol. She close her ears with both of her hand, and tears is slowly rolling down from her face.

"Are you okay?" the man looks worry about Carol condition

"I hate thunder. It remains me the day my Dad passed away." Carol stopped for a second and continued, "My Dad and I built this woody house together. Everytime I was scolded by him or my Mom, I will ran to this house. If I didnt get back in an hours, my dad will come, accompany me till I want to went home with him. This house kept a thousand memories of me & my Dad. But......." Carol starts to cry, "At the day he passed away, I weren't by his side. I was in Aussie, in my college, in my class, having my final test. You know what, at the time my Mom told me about the bad news, suddenly it's raining and having a loud thunder. I felt that the rain and the thunder want to let me know that they have my Dad with them in the sky, and I can't do anything to change it. Even the worst part is, I can't fly back to my home, see my Dad for the last time before he was buried, just because I still having my final test for the next five days. I just wish that I can see my Dad for the last time, talk to him and tell him how much I love him."

The man smiles and caress Carol's hair softly, "Your father must be very proud having a daughter that loved him so much."

"I wish he know it. When he was alive, I never listen to his words, disobey him many times, and act like I dont need a Dad like him. Now I regret. I should tell him I love him when I still have that change."

"Your father surely know it. He's hearing to all what you said from the sky."

"Is he?"

"Yes, he will. And if I am your father, I will tell you that I never regret to have a daughter like you."

"Do you think so?" Carol sweeps away her tears and looks at the man

"Absolutely." the man stand up and continue, "I have to go now."

"But the rain hasn't stop. Why don't you wait till it's stop? I dont mind to accompany you. I feel comfort and warm when I am with you. Maybe it's sound ridiculous, but for a second, I felt that you like my Dad. Your smile. Your words. Your way to speak."

The man smiles again, "I need to go now. I dont have much time left."

"Wait" Carol go inside the house and come out with an umbrella in her hand, "Take this. It is my Dad favorite umbrella, but I think you need it than me. I can wait till the rain stops and go home."

"Thank you, Dear." the man take the umbrella

"Hmmmphh....May I have a hug?"

"Sure." the man laugh and walk near to Carol, give a big hug, "Just assume that this is a hug from your father. A hug that will give you strength. And remember, your Dad will always be with you. He's seeing you from the sky."

Carol is nodding her head and waving her hand to that man.

In the next morning. Carol just wake up and walks to her front of house, look for a newspaper. She's quite shock when saw a blue umbrella is standing nect to the newspaper. She take the umbrella and find a little card is stick in front of it. It's written :

Thank you for the umbrella, Dear

-Josh Ruberto-

P.S : I will always see you from above.

Now, Carol understand, why that man look like her father. From the way he speak, the way he smile, the way he walk and the way he called her "Dear". Because, that man was her father.

"Thanks, Dad. Everytime, when I am thinking bout you, I will never cry anymore. I will smile and said to the world that I proud to be your the daughter of Josh Ruberto."

Can I ??

I asked to the wind,

Can I touch you??

The wind blows.

I asked to the sun,

Can I meet you??

The sun burns me.

I asked to the moon and stars,

Can I pick you??

The moon smiles and the stars wink.

I asked to the love,

Can I know you??

The love gives me heart broken.

Scar

"It's impossible to forget something that left scar inside my heart.

The only way, just pretend they're not exist." Celestyn Suryani Wijaya, 14 Oct 2009

I'm so sorry.

This time, the scar that has been left is to deep.

I cant stand it anymore.

But to make it easier,

I just said everything is settle down.

The fact is not.

I just through away something that make me looks weak.

Just by this, I can still be stonger.

Lets see the next time we met.

Can we still the same??

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10.30 pm.

Finished my chat with my best friend, Jason.

I really liked to chat with him.

Sometimes, his opinion or advise, give me courage to move forward.

Like what he told me just now.

I'm not taking a wrong decision as what I stated above.

Jas support me.

He said, "It is the best way."

Thank you dude, for being there when I faced a problem.

I wish that u are a girl.

I will hug u tightly hahahhah.....

Between Life and Fairy Tales

Life is not a fairy tales.

Wanna know the different??

Fairy tales always have a happy ending.

But life not.

I try my best to get up,

but at the last, I always fallen down again.

Thousand of tears to exchange for one happiness.

It's deserve.

I have cried for thousand times,

but,

where is my happiness??

Duniaku

Aku terduduk di samping sebuah jendela besar. Dengan mata sendu, aku menyapu seluruh pemandangan yang terpancar diluar jendela besar itu.

Aku bertanya pada diriku sendiri, "Apa yang kuinginkan?"

Tidak ada jawaban.

Aku kembali bertanya, "Mengapa aku merasa ada yang kurang dalam hidupku?"

Tidak ada jawaban juga.

Kemana harus kucari jawaban itu??

Untuk beberapa hari ini, aku merasa semua yang kulakukan hanyalah sebuah kebohongan belaka.

Sebuah senyuman palsu untuk membahagiakan orang-orang di sekitarku.

Sebuah candaan garing yang kulontarkan.
Sebuah percakapan basi yang diperbincangakan di sela waktu.

Sebuah kebohongan diri.

Ada apa dengan diriku??
Tidak ada yang bisa menjawab.

Sebab tidak ada yang mengenalku sedalam diriku sendiri.

Disaat aku tidak menemukan jawaban atas pertanyaanku, rasanya mustahil bagi orang lain untuk menjawabnya.

Aku memisahkan diri dari semua orang.

Menikmati rasa kesepian dalam kesendirianku.

Ada yang kurang, hatiku terus berbisik pada otakku.

Saat semua orang terlelap pada malam hari.

Aku akan bangun.

Hidup dalam sebuah dunia yang kurangkai sendiri dengan imajinasi yang tidak pernah lekang oleh waktu.

Aku menyukai dunia yang kubuat.

Tapi aku masih tahu jelas yang mana nyata dan fiktif,

walaupun orang sering berkata antara imajinasi dan kenyataan itu hampir tidak ada batas.

Kadang aku menangis tanpa sebab.

Kesal tanpa amarah.

Apa yang terjadi pada diriku.

Duniaku ternyata terlalu rumit untuk diriku sendiri.

Ada saatnya aku memikirkan bagaimana jika aku meninggalkan semuanya??

Tapi aku merasa sayang dan bunuh diri, dosa terbesar dalam agamaku.

Aku ingin bercerita.

Tapi tidak tahu kepada siapa.

Aku ingin seseorang menemaniku.

Tapi tidak ada orang yang tepat.

Harus berapa lama lagi aku hidup dalam dunia ini?

Dunia yang tidak dapat kumegerti.

Happiness

I just read a novel, which is bestseller in New York.

The title, "Tuesday with Morrie."

I havent finished it, yet,

But I think I got some inspiration to write for my blog today.

And I want to share with everyone.

What is happiness??

It's a common and simple question, but most of people need a lifetime to answer it.

And the worst part is, some of them died without knowing the answer.

But, according to me.

I think the answer of ' what is happiness' is depend on

'What kind of happiness that you look for??'

Some quotes said, "If you said money cant buy happiness, it means u never shop."

Yes, it's true for some people that love to shop.

They find their happiness through the shopping.

But what about a quote, "Money cant buy happiness?"

Do u agree??

I dont.

Because according to some people, money is their happiness.

With money they can find their happiness.

I just want to said that, "Dont be a hypocrite person."

We said that we dont need money, we just need love and happiness, but the truth is you still need money to be alive.

Love cant fed you.

Happiness cant fed you.

So dont keep saying that you dont need money.

Just be honest to ourselves. We definitely need money as a media to reach our happiness.

Back to the topic again.

Happiness is a relative feeling.

U can find happiness in looking a poor old man eating or helping an old woman across the street as well as shopping in the high class mall.

So, my answer of "what is happiness" is Myself.

My answer can be same or different with everyone, because different people have different perception of 'happiness'

That's all for today.

I hope everyone can find your own truly happiness inside of yourself.

Ketika Persahabatan di Ujung Tanduk

Pernah ada yang berkata, "Persahabatan itu kekal."

Pernah ada yang berkata, "Persahabatan itu selamanya."

Pernah ada yang berkata, "Persahabatan itu hidup."

Pernah ada yang berkata, "Persahabatan itu segalanya."

Apakah semua itu benar??

Disaat kita memulai sebuah persahabatan, semuanya terasa indah, penuh warna.

Mengapa??

Karena kita memiliki teman baru, teman untuk berbagi cerita, teman untuk melakukan hal-hal konyol yang out of sense.

Dan disaat kita sedang sedih, teman itu akan selalu di samping kita, menjaga kita, berada disana sampai kita berhenti bersedih.

Jika sebuah persahabatan dimulai dengan perasaan yang tulus dan jujur, mengapa disaat masalah datang, persahabatan itu goyah??

Apakah persahabatan tidak sedalam yang selama ini kita elu-elukan??

Ketika persahabatan di ujung tanduk, apa yang harus kita lakukan??

Kadang karena nila setitik, rusak susu sebelangga, seseorang pernah mengatakannya padaku.

Dan aku percaya akan hal itu.

Karena aku mengalaminya sekarang.

Aku berusaha untuk menyelamatkan persahabatan kami.

Sebuah persahabatan yang belum berumur panjang, tapi telah mewarnai hidup kami.

Sebuah persahabatan yang penuh canda, tawa dan tangisan.

Sebuah persahabatan yang membuat kami lebih hidup.

Sebuah persahabatan yang kami rindukan.

Akankah sebuah persahabatan akan selamanya menjadi sebuah persahabatan?

Happy Weekend

This is how me & my fellas shape our body.

hohohoh...

We do some cycling, running

and end it with swimming.

It all just a waste, coz, after it,

we went for an earlier dinner and lately dinner.

So the calories supposed to be plus not minus.

One of my friends is celebreting his b'day today.

"Happy b'day Sugi. Hope everything can be settle down."

Friends

Huh...

Have been busy during this week....

Got so many things to do....

So, I'm happy that today, I cant do blogging......

I have a dinner with my school friends.....

We have fun...., chit chat, as usuall....

And I really miss the memories that I ever had with them.....

UUgghhhh.....

Can I turn back the time???

I know that is an old words, but I mean it.

Not much that I can write today.....

Maybe it will end just like this...

When I got some time, I will do blogging again...

XOXO

Karaoke

I'm too tired to write more.

So I just updated some photos.

Busy Day

I dont have much time to blogging now.

I have to work.

I have to write my novel.

And my newest activities.

I have to shape my body by going to fitness centre. ^^

Long Break

1st october...

The best date to start blogging again.

I'm back to my cyworld after the long absent.....

Hmmphh...

Why I'm not online for about two weeks??

The reason is I'm prefer sleeping hahahha..

A awkward answer?

No, doubts.

Actually, I'm preparing myself for my first novel.

I keep searching for the inspiration and the red lines between the story and conflict that I create.

And I'm quite satisfy with my story.

It have been 60% completed.

Wish to finish it as soon as possible.

And I will do my best to get it publish.

Well, as usuall.

I always get what I wont.

last time, this time or the next time.